Welcome to my blog! I am a 30 year old California gal living in the heart of Silicon Valley, who recently realized that after four years in her current career, she wanted to do something else. The problem was…she didn’t know what she wanted to do. You can see the dilemma here. This blog is about my experience and journey of starting over and finding the career of my dreams.
I knew I was unhappy and not entirely fulfilled with my current career. I’m a teacher -high school- so every time someone finds out what I do, immediately they say, “Wow, that must be so fulfilling- that must feel very rewarding!” I usually have this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach -maybe it’s guilt, because it doesn’t fulfill me anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I chose this career because it was what I wanted -at the time. But, things have changed… and I’ve changed. I can’t fight this nagging feeling that I’m stuck and to get unstuck means finding a new passion. I feel like there’s something else I’m meant to do, something more than what I’m doing now. In my experience, my intuition has always been spot on. So, I feel like I’d better listen to it now because I don’t want to live a life of regret. I don’t want to regret staying in a career I like, but don’t love. I don’t want to regret NOT living up to my full potential and taking action. This leads me to the idea of fear and its place in my life.
I know a lot about fear. Unfortunately, I have often let it run my life and its kept me from trying and learning new things. When I decided that I would make this huge change in my life thoughts like, “you couldn’t do anything else”, “you don’t know how to do anything else, so what would you do?”, “you’re too old to go back to school, it would take you forever, and would be, too expensive”, “you’re not smart enough”, “you’re not talented enough”, and “people younger than you are already at the top, or where they want to be, in the career of their dreams” immediately began flooding my mind. Then I realized, when I let these kinds thoughts keep me from accomplishing goals, I alone am holding myself back; I am a prisoner to my own fear. Now, I know my higher power did not intend for me to live a life limited by fear, but a life where I am free to be my true self.
So what am I going to do? Well, I live in Silicon Valley so naturally I feel a pull towards tech. I have always felt an inclination towards business, I’m a natural leader, and I have a creative side that needs to be nurtured. Could I actually do something that involved all of those things? Then it slowly crept into my mind…get a degree in computer science. Once again fear set in. I was afraid that people would think and I guess, rightly so, because when I expressed my interests to a colleague, he responded, “I don’t see you doing that” and chuckled. I can’t let fear hold me back. He doesn’t know my limitations, what I can, and cannot do -hell, I don’t even know! So I’m going to find out.
Follow me on my journey and I hope you’re inspired to start your own!